FREEDOM
May 22nd, 2026
I'm FINALLY WRITING AGAIN AND UPDATING MY WEBSITE YAAAAY!! This past month has been just so so busy, all the school and graduation stuff omggg. I've also learned I think that I might prefer actually talking instead of typing, so I might make an audio or video blog or something? Idk, I LOVE writing but it's just not my preferred way of communicative expression unless it's like prose or poetry in which case that would not accomplish the very specific and real life type blogging I want to do. For some reason though, I'm just so terrified of putting ANYTHING of me on the internet, I don't have any public pictures posted anywhere, except for a few on my friends Instagrams, but mine is private, and most of my friends' accounts are private as well. I feel like I just need to get over it. I'm not really an insecure person, I'm actually pretty confident with expressing myself around other people EXCEPT through words, which definitely is something I need to work on. Also I had a couple pictures of me up on my home page a while back but removed them because I was just SCARED IDK?? Like, I think I'm just SO beautiful, it's just the fact that other people are SEEING ME?? PEOPLE I DON'T KNOW????? HUH?!? Anyway... I just need to get over it lol...
But oh my god so much has happened since I last posted on here. I FREAKIN' GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL YAAAY. I took my exams, a few of them I'm not getting results back on since they're AP, but I got a 100 on my anatomy exam so I think I'm doing pretty good heh... Now... AP Calculus did not go so well, and I kind of supposed that would happen? To be honest, my mom passed away last October, and school honestly hasn't been my biggest priority this year. Idk if I've said this on here before? It's been so long. But I'm doing well for my circumstances I would say!! Anyway. My EVIL DEMONIC calculus teacher was saying she hasn't had one of her students get a 1 on the exam in YEARS, (it's out of 5 and the lowest you can get is a 1) but I'm very glad to be blessing her with that score!! I'm not like 101% certain I got a 1 yet, but like... THERE'S NO WAY I DIDN'T LOL. I took AP Lit and AP Gov and they actually went pretty well, I'd be shocked if I didn't quality (at least a 3) on both. So ya!
I'm gonna try and update my DTI section very soon because idk when my school email is getting shut down... and I was taking advantage of my free pro student canva account 🤑 And I just freaking love that game yo omg. I feel like ever since I've been playing that game my style and fashion sense has improved dramatically, I can throw together outfits so much more easily in real life, and it's helped me experiment and figure out some style stuff, idk I just love it. It does have its issues as a game and as a community but honestly, it's gonna take a lot to rip that game out of my hands.
Soooooo, I'm going to try and start up some sort of audio/video blog thing?? I'm not totally sure yet... But one thing I've always loved is watching those youtube vlogs from really small channels where they just sit in front of a camera and talk or go out with a camera and talk, they're always so enlightening and show you parts of real peoples lives instead of hand-selected highly curated short-form content from influencers that only show the best and most opulent parts of their lives. Of course those small channels are still going to curate, but you and I KNOW it's not even close to the same level that influencers do. It's so much more relatable, and in some ways I feel like we're losing that in media now. I feel like we've gotten so far deep into our screen addictions that we've begun to lose the satisfaction and the connection and the raw humanity that comes with relatability. It's not even entirely our faults, a whole lot of it comes down to capitalism but that's a whole different conversation.
I hope to connect with more people online, reach out to me babess!! My contact info is on my home page. <33