This Past Week

April 15th, 2026

WHY HAS LIFE BEEN SO CRAZY THIS PAST WEEK HELP. This past Sunday my partner and I were on our way to thrift together. I was visiting for a couple days and all my stuff was already packed in his car, since I was going home afterwards. So we're on the highway, he's driving perfectly normally, in his lane, going the same speed as other cars etc, when all of a sudden an 18-WHEELER DECIDES TO SLAM INTO US FROM THE LEFT. AND JUST DRIVE OFF ALSO. The driver side airbags went off, and there was a pretty big dent in the side of the car. Thankfully though, he was pretty much fine except for a couple marks and him not being able to hear from his left ear even up till now cause of the airbag (😭) but we went to the ER and he was fine :3 I was completely untouched, literally nothing, thankfully. But that was freaking scary as crap.

Also I really need to buy the new WoW expansion... I've just been procrastinating. Also, something crazy to me is that with the addition of playing housing in the game ZILLOW paired up with WoW?? What. Anyway that's pretty cool.

I've only got 9 school days left until May, and in May I'm only going to school maybe a few days that month. I graduate on May 19th, also, which is genuinely crazy to think about. I don't tend to overshare a lot on the internet anymore but I feel like what's the point of having a website if not to overshare... SO I shall. But when it comes to school, I've had a 3.8 GPA my entire time in school except for this year, and it's gone down to a 3.6. I KNOW that's still good, but the fact that it went down by that much is upsetting to me. Because a 3.6 looks good on scholarships, but a 3.8 looks AMAZING. However, I can't really blame myself. My mom passed away last October from colon cancer after a year, and that was very hard on me and my entire family. I missed so much school. And it's so weird living now, because me and her were very close. I don't often see people have relationships with their moms like I had. It was pretty much every day that we would go outside and just talk for like an hour. And she let me do SO much and feel so free to do whatever I wanted as long as it wasn't, y'know, a crime. Or evil.

This post has been way more negative than I intended, BUT I feel like everyone's been kind of having a rough week? IDK.

I'm so excited for this summer. I'm planning on relaxing my buttcheeks off while also trying to go out a lot because I've realized that I really hate staying indoors all the time. Whenever I visit my partner, who lives in a very big city, it just feels so nice to be out on the school campus and just going places and doing stuff. Like psh obviously living life is nice. But I just spend way too much inside my house and my head.

When I graduate, I feel like I have to block way too many people I know. I just truly don't want to see these people again!! And I just found out that one of my friends for the past few years is racist????? like... wow! what! where did this come from. I was literally just relaxing in my English class when the class is having a discussion and she gets brought up and they start talking about how the year prior they had her in their class present FOR AN ASSIGNMENT why they think "black people stereotype themselves"... WHAT. And this person is very queer and progressive I never thought they would say sum like that?? And it's so late in the year that I don't know if I should just wait until graduation until I block them so I at least keep my friend group until then? Which really sucks because my best friend since freshman year I KNOW for CERTAIN would take my racist friend's side. Not because they're racist, but they're just weird, I don't even know. I really regret hanging out with these people. Another thing though, is that I don't want to hang around them and people think I'm also racist? I'm very much so not the type of person that cares about what other people think or say about me but if people thought I was racist idek. And when I block them should I say anything?? I'm about to rant abt this person so BE WARNED OMG. I'll call the racist one A and my best friend S...

I became friends with A almost 3 years ago because we had a mutual friend, S! So I was like yeah of course this is cool. And I thought y'know A was kind of just as corny as I was and sorta silly so I thought it'd work out. But over the year that we had a class together, I started noticing some things... Firstly, one time they asked me to throw away their trash knowing I have OCD and I refused so they started kicking my backpack around?? Then, I noticed the things they were saying were a little bit like. Too edgy? I was like that way back when too, of course, but I was still a little concerned. And the biggest thing that pisses me off was this:

They're a bigger person right? No issue there. But they would CONSTANTLY talk about how skinny I am and how small my boobs are and talk about how I don't eat anything and how they're actually stronger than me and would survive better than me because they have weight on them. And I put up with this for a whole year until I complained about it to the wrong person and they told them and they kinda were pissed at me for the whole summer. Then we come back for senior year! And they apologize and stuff. But they actually only changed for like a month. They are the exact same now. And honestly, S has been making comments about my body for years. And I was fine with it at first cause I'm fine with a little bit of stabby pokey jokes. But it's actually way too often now that it's starting to feel like they're not the kind of people I should hang out with anymore. And I really care about S, they've gone through a lot, I've always been there for them. But they've never been there for me, not more than a, "I'm sorry man, that sucks." so... yeah I think I'm blocking these people...

Idk... What do you guys think? Email me at bestblergs@gmail.com or message me on discord at "blergatron." (make sure to include the period)

I'd really love to know what you guys think about all this...! Bye for now <33

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